I have several friends who have suggested that I write my story down. This is something you say to someone to show appreciation for a good story, it strokes them, and it’s nice - but I don’t think anyone really means it. I have some interesting friends, but I really don’t think that I would curl up on the couch and read a book about them. As interesting as they are, I am just not that interesting. Another reason I wouldn’t do this is that I think people have a real propensity to lie, especially when it’s about themselves. That being said, I have decided to do exactly that. Not lie, but to write down my story. I do not have any kids, I do have a long term girlfriend and she is sick to death of my stories. Nothing particularly interesting has happened to me in the past couple years. A few major events have happened while I have been with her, so she knows that I have a tendancy to get involved in some wacky shit, but unfortunately the events that she was around for were not interesting in a cool way. They were interesting in a morbid, depressing and sometimes downright terrifying way.
I am going to write down everything I can remember. I don’t know if I am going to change the characters at all, I really want to be as truthful as possible. I will try not to use names, but I am still undecided on whether or not I will be as accurate about the character so that figuring it out would be pretty easy. Almost all of my stories involve some sort of illegal activity. That is another things I have thought about. While I have not been involved in anything too serious, it might be wise to alter events enough that I would be safe from being dragged into some shit I don’t want to deal with. Then there are the dangerous people. This is another thing I have to think through. Obviously I am not going to name names, or implicate anyone in anything - as the story unfolds what will become clear is that selling people out, is not something I do. Trust me, I could have, and my life would have been a lot easier, but I didn’t. On that front, I can sleep easy.
I have started the outline of the ‘book’. Just the ouline alone is going to take a while because in life, everything is connected and its important that I keep the timeline right so that I can make the proper connections between people.
Another one of my goals is that this will allow me to reconnect with some people who I have lost track of, and find out the fate of some others that I wish the worst for. I have seen a lot of karmic debt pile up in my life and I admit, I would get some satisfaction knowing that some people met a horrible end.
The story is going to give a little history about growing up, I think its relevant to why I am who I am and why I made the decisions I did. The real story is going to start when I am around 17 with the meat of the story happening over the next 15 years. There is plenty of drugs, sex, violence and lost love. I may have not reached my full potential or even amounted to much, but one thing I know, me and my life have effected quite a few people. Good or bad, I will definitely be remembered.